Alt Accounts & Secret Lives...and Risks

One story, certainly not indicative of all or even many, just one that stood out in my mind as a unique and unpleasant experience....

In another world and on another forum a man became aware of both my account identities. He became obsessed with my duality and asked me, among other things, to log into the forum as my sex alt and tell everyone that he was the best sex I'd ever had. I declined. Not long after that, and for largely unrelated reasons, he posted some forum posts vaguely threatening to out my alt in messages that were designed so that only I would be likely to see what he really meant. I didn't like the control that gave him, so I outted myself. To say he was shocked by my response would be putting it mildly.

Alt Accounts & Secret Lives

Orfeu said:

"I am kinda curious about the whole 'Sex Alt" thing.

Take the case of Lee . ...coughs...blinks...

Ok.. I get it, that this alt is anonymous....maybe engages in the odd activity, that you wouldn't want to be associated with your main etc etc.

But if you then go on a forum, and write in some depth about her....um.....playtime....and we all read it as Lee activities.....then I am not sure what you gained.

Yeah...ok...I dont know this alts name (worse luck)...and will prolly never meet her...but when I read about her exploits...I am basically thinking, this is Lee doing all this.

This is not a criticism...I love reading your reports from the trenches....I am just genuinely curious about the benefits of the anonymous sex alt. "

Repost. Orfeu Miles, Mar 4, 2011 http://gotvirtual.net/community/threads/thats-what-she-said.772/page-18#post-30743 

Ohh, I think you're missing the point, Orfeu. If this is what I'm willing to tell you then...

And thank you. Very much. 

Part of it is that my rabbit hole does go deeper. This thread is not a "tell-all" despite appearances to the contrary.
Part of it is a sense of freedom that I have when I'm not "me."
Part of it is that the people I interact with on the two different accounts tend to be very different and I'm happy keeping them separate.
Part of is it a protection of both my play partners and me.
Part of it is that I'm aware that forums may be totally public and forever, but the readership is actually a fairly small pool of people and many not very motivated to make an issue of what I'm writing in here in a meaningful, beyond-the-forum kind of way.
Part of it is that I enjoy a certain amount of risk and playing close to the line.
Part of it is pure account management. My sex alt account is almost unmanageable as it is.

And part of it is...some people can get a little weird if they do acquire that knowledge about me.

Does that clarify anything for you, Orfeu?

Reposts. LeeHere Absent, Mar 4, 2011  http://gotvirtual.net/community/threads/thats-what-she-said.772/page-19#post-30755

Orfeu Miles said: ↑

Yep...all is now admirably clear.
Risk is fun....couldn't agree more...kinda thing that needs to be well managed ( which I never seem to do)..but a whole heap of fun. 

Excellent. Thank you.

Orfeu Miles said: ↑

...I dont know this alts name (worse luck)...and will prolly never meet her...

I think the interesting question is, since you know me, why do you want to meet "her"? 

Orfeu said: ↑

Well...since we first met...we fell into the friends (no benefits) category...and I actually like that. 

As I have told you, finding a partner to cyber with is WAY easier than finding someone you can have an engaging series of conversations with.
To meet her, would surely put our friendship at risk.

but
er
um
"Part of it is that I enjoy a certain amount of risk and playing close to the line."

Ya see what I did there ?? 

Who's fault was that? 

Good. I agree wholeheartedly.

Ohhhhhh definitely.

Repost. LeeHere Absent, Mar 4, 2011 http://gotvirtual.net/community/threads/thats-what-she-said.772/page-19#post-30839

Slippery Slope

I followed some more of Lum's breadcrumbs (he sees LeeHere too, well hell, so do other people) and found this blog post from June 25, 2007 called "What if they gave an orgy, and nobody came? The open scandals of sex in the undercity," that is as relevant to this thread and sex in Second Life as anything written in 2007 about sex or Second Life is, which is to say, extremely relevant. It's written by Lillie Yifu on her Raise the Red Lantern blog which purports to be about the intimate side of Second Sex. We have a First and Second Life, why not a First and Second Sex Life?

(I notice that not only do Lillie and I share some similar perspectives on men and sex in Second Life, but we also share a near complete lack of patience in waiting for everything to rez before taking and posting pictures. Bless her. She also has, however, a penchant for outting people on her blog that I do not share. So be fair warned. She uses condemnations, pics [RL & SL], names, titles, profiles and descriptions of acts. Her last blog post is from December of 2009, so it may be safe to go back into the Adult and Mature waters.)


Edit p.s.:

I see she has another, more current, sex-in-Second Life blog called 2nd Sex that has a posting as recent as December 6, 2010. So if you are chumming the fuck waters of Second Life, beware the watchful stripper in a thong with the flashing camera.

Lum said: ↑

I've talked to Lillie a few times over the years. She's a very smart woman who for whatever reason has chosen an SL career that puts her on the fast track towards meeting some very dumb men, and it's shaded her view towards men in SL. On the other hand, if you read the chat transcripts she puts up, it's not without some justification.

I'm probably gonna go off on a bit of a tangent from your post (and thank you for that), but...

I've noticed, from my own prolific sexual behavior in Second Life, that sliding down that slippery slope to a jaded and uncharitable view of the opposite sex, or I suppose I should say "targeted" sex in order to include all sexual possibilities and preferences, is an occupational (as in "activity in which a person is engaged," not necessarily "professional") hazard. I like to think I do a pretty good job of keeping my perspective and my appreciation of men in general (as a heterosexual female), but the reality is, you can't spend a lot of time engaged in one particular activity and not expect it to have an effect on your personal hard-wiring and that particular activity, casual sex, really skews the sensory input down to something specific and visceral and unfairly unflattering to the larger group being considered. It's just the nature of the beast. I've made a personal choice to actively keep a guarded eye on my own attitudes and not let it completely pervert my thinking, so to speak. All groups of people have assholes and saints and some who are neither but just have their moments.

Lillie and I are both calling people out on their behaviors in our own ways, and while I do hear what you are saying about some justification (hell, I think my own transcripts show some justification, and I did observe her blogging about more serious issues like Adult activities on Mature land as well as public ageplay), I'm not as comfortable with the idea of posting people's full avatar names and pictures and profiles with the behaviors and chat. That's why most of the chat transcripts I post contain scrubbed names like Guy 1 and Guy 2. When I post a pic, I usually either get permission or I scrub the name and identifiers beyond the physical appearance, unless the physical appearance itself is just too much of an identifier.

I have a sex alt. I like the freedom of movement and the anonymity and the ability to experiment and play. I appreciate and respect that for others too. Although, with the two examples I specifically mentioned in Lillie's blog, I can see the value in an "outting" activism, but she's catching regular Joe Wannafuckers in her net with screen prints and such and that makes me twitch.

On the other hand, it did occur to me that someone included in her blog might actually benefit from a reader hitting them up for some casual, meaningless, wannafuck sex. Yeah, I do actually think that way; it's not just how I'm drawn. 

And then every once in a while I meet a man who seems to make a good challenge to the perceptions I'm forming.

Lum said: ↑

She does raise an important point, though, that comes up frequently, and that in SL, there is a line between meaningless, wannafuck sex (which Lillie, as a sometime dancer/escort specializes in) and imposing your will on the unwilling.

While you may enjoy random sex with strangers on your sex alt (or your main for that matter, I won't judge you save behind your back!), I strongly suspect you would have standards. You would expect your prospective partner to meet some minimum standard for physical appearance, ability to complete a sentence, basic creativity, willingness to acknowledge you might have desires of your own, what have you. Whereas the Joe Wannafuckers she chronicles desire none of those things - they show up in 50L avatars even though they clearly have spent time in SL, hop on a poseball, and expect the most beautiful avatar in the room to service them (and I use that verb intentionally). They see sex in SL not as a mutual exercise but as computer-assisted masturbation, primarily because they do not see others within SL as real, but as constructs within a computer game.

That's step 1 of the jacktard scale - step 2 is when you get to mindfuckers who try to get as much RL information as possible, as quickly as possible, because it's the closest thing that delivers the emotional wallop of rape within a virtual environment. And that, too, is entirely too common.

Often people will shoot you an IM that simply says, "ASL." A quick Google search will tell you that they are asking for your Age, Sex and Location, and to be clear, your real-life age, sex and location, or as one contributor to the Urban Dictionary helpfully adds, "What stupid people say on chats to learn who you are and where you live so they can come to your house with a chainsaw and kill you."

Lillie Yifu makes references to "ASLFers." I don't know what that is, though it has a meme-like quality running through her blog a la Prok's "FIC," and reminds me of Pep's frequent comments about "EFLers," but I would hazard a guess that it might refer to someone who immediately asks for your Age, Sex, Location and Fantasy or Fetish. Any other guesses? Perhaps Lum and Orfeu actually know and will enlighten us.

When I'm in Second Life on my Lee account, the answer to ASL is quick, real and simple (it's already on my profile anyway): 43, female, Seattle. (Although I think I have just put that I am in my 40s on my profile so I don't have to update the damn thing every time I have another birthday.)

When I'm in Second Life on my sex account, I sometimes give that question just a little more thought and a lot less simple reality, as the answer could be any number of things, including, but not limited to:

a) None of your damn business.
b) If that is important to you, then we are probably not a good play-date match.
c) Whatever I want it to be, female and Fantasyland or perhaps a slight variation...
d) Over 21, female and right here in Second Life... and to entertain myself with a bit of slutty-sounding sarcasm veiled as a coy come on...
e) What do you want it to be, baby?

My observation is that most of the people who ask ASL expect a real First Life answer and that most people who answer it are giving fantasy Second Life answers. It's an interesting disconnect. (Note that I specifically said "most" and not "all" and that I am qualifying it as my personal observation.)

Sometimes I feel I am being incredibly honest and forthcoming when I reply, "over 21, female and right here in Second Life," as indeed, I am, and on more than one level, but the response I usually get is, "Ha, ha, ha."

colleen Criss said: ↑

I say that too as a rule because they are actually asking colleen Criss ASL , well shes 3 ...shes fem and shes from SL. Past that I have no info I wish to give them. If they don't like that answer *shrugs*

You go, girl. And thank you for adding the Second Life rez-date age. An excellent cover of my egregious omission.

1+
Female
Second Life

Repost. LeeHere Absent, Mar 3, 2011 http://gotvirtual.net/community/threads/thats-what-she-said.772/page-13#post-30293  http://gotvirtual.net/community/threads/thats-what-she-said.772/page-13#post-30325  http://gotvirtual.net/community/threads/thats-what-she-said.772/page-14#post-30341  http://gotvirtual.net/community/threads/thats-what-she-said.772/page-14#post-30423